Question: Are dreams real?

Question:
Are dreams real? There are times when I would have dreams and it feels so real... It is as though there are people trying to tell you something, and they do it through your dreams. But what I was told is dreams aren't real. They are just things we think about and we may believe in it, but it may not be true. It's like our own imagination. I've also heard of the fact that dreams are our subconscious mind speaking. So it may be real. 


Answer:
First off, the word imagination is the worst word made up for humankind. Imagination is a way of getting your thoughts together to create a scene for yourself. You did it intentionally, hence you imagine. When you don't do it intentionally, is when you receive divine messages from God or your unseen support team. That's why imagination is very different from dreams, or intuitive messages because dreams and intuitive messages does not need any effort for you to make it up.


Second off, dreams are as real as you and me. Dreams can be very abstract to explain but here are some ways to identify if they are real or not. I have identified a few and hope it will explain to you how dreams are actually real manifestation from your own subconscious mind and it is for you to take note, no matter how useless they may seem.

• messages of your subconscious mind - requesting you to start working on issues that you are currently, unconsciously blocking yourself from certain achievement

When it is messages of your subconscious mind, the dream is usually symbolic. The dream may not make sense - it may look awkward and disjointed. For instance, you may be in a house but the house is filled with gold tiles, which is not your house. House is an example where it is an indication of you looking deep within. Look a dream dictionary for more information on this signs. 

• messages from your Angels/ghost/Deceased Loved Ones

If it is a message from Angels, it is always comforting, loving, joyful and peaceful. So are Deceased Loved Ones. They usually come with a lot of love, with no speaking involve... that means you will not see their mouth moving but you understand them telephatically. Nothing from the divine should appear frightful, depressing or lack of. If you find it frightful, disgusted, nervous, anxious and sad, your encounter may be with a ghost who is trying to send you a message. They send you messages while you are asleep because that is when your ego is at rest and it would not fight you from communicating psychically. 

• messages from anyone alive

When it is a message from someone else alive, such that you could be dreaming your sister is going to have a baby and it turned out to be true as you find out the next morning, that is your sister sending you thoughts while she is sleeping. Because we are connected and we come from the same Source, we communicate among ourselves constantly and we never know it. We know we can send each other messages but we didn't know it is that powerful. But we receive them while we sleep because again, the ego is at rest and it is unable to filter the subtle messages that comes through.

• a past live that you have yet to release and it is requiring you to so that you can live your life free from karmic ties

When it is past lives, you see your dream as a whole. The scene is like a movie line. Everything would seem so real and you would probably even think, waking up from the dream that you were still in that lifetime. I recommend you try to recall this type of dream as much as possible. Write it in a journal. If it happen more than once, it is a good chance that the dream is a past live. Once you are aware of it, tell your Angels that you want to release your dream. As soon as you release it with the next exhale, you should feel as sense of peace and joy. The releasing method allows you to move forward with life without fear, judgement and phobias. 

• pre-cognition of future events / syncrodestiny

Pre-cognition is like foretelling of future events. It may be your spirit guides or guardian angels trying to let you know, based on the decisions you are doing now, you will encounter these future events. If the future event is something you look forward to and you are please with the scenes, by all means, keep doing what you are doing. Your angels are applauding you. If the future events seem bleak, or there may be death involved, please let that person or yourself know. Pray for safety, make wise decisions and ask your angels for clear guidance to help you make the right step. Do not fear for the worse as of course, you would manifest that. Instead, know that all future events can be altered. It is your freewill that will change the path. So do whatever you can in the NOW, to manifest your best dreams to come true. 

A syncrodestiny may be giving you signs of what is in your life right now. Syncrodestiny is like living a life full of deja vu or full of coincidence. Coincidence is not just a mere luck. It is the manifestation of your own wanting, your own desires in your current life. However, sometimes we do not know what is the next step to take to meet that 'coincidence'. There are going to be times when you only need to make that one phone call to this particular person because you thought about him or her, and that's how you got your new job. So, in dreams, sometimes we are given the signs to that next step. Take note of it as you may see it apply when you are awake. Coincidence, good luck and deja vu are just ways to send you the messages that you are on the right track. The track is then the one that will lead you to the event or achievements you are trying to manifest in your life. 

What Is My Path? And How Am I Ever Going To Find It?

When you are confuse and wonder what your life path or purpose is, your first step to finding out is to look within. It is not easy to see yourself with honesty, but it is the only way for you will only be reminded what you really are build in inside. It is like reminding yourself, what is your real role, what are your scripts? Because now you are like the actress who forgot her lines, thus forgetting what her role is suppose to be.

It's funny how after a decade, I went on a frantic search for Pocahontas movie soundtrack on Youtube, only to realize, Wow - what a powerful movie. When I finally found it, I have forgotten how much I used to love singing to their soundtrack and after 17 years later, I still remember all its lyrics! At age 12, I really didn't understood a lot of the lines that were said but of course, now I do and I'm in love with it even more. In retrospect, I think you would already know in your heart what it really meant, when you hear something so familiar at soul level, although your brain did not have the vocabulary for it.

If you grew up with Disney movie, you would know the older ones are packed with meanings and are beautifully written. One of the meaningful songs I find that could be useful for a lot of you is this song called "Listen to your Heart". You might think this is ridiculous, to use a kid's movie for reference but take your mind away from judging the cartoon appearances and that it is for kids only. Listen carefully to the lyrics - see how Pocahontas asked for guidance from Mother Earth and how she honor listening to her heart without doubting but with all honesty. She accepted her soul's message and in that instance, curiosity kicks in and she went to look for what it meant. When you are looking, the Universe sends you the answers and you need not look hard for it. However, patience may be the only thing you would have to endure in this process.  When you asked, the answers would showed up... sooner or later.





I was in that exact process in the whole of 2011. The whole time asking and searching, asking and searching, and finally I found it. If only I did not doubt myself, the process would have gone even faster. I listen to my heart, to find who the soul really is. When I accepted what my heart sang to me, it became apparent who I am suppose to be. It fits right in, it was very comfortable, it feels positive, joyful and centered. No need for struggling, frustrating moments... it will all feel right when you Listen To Your Heart.

Question: How many past lives does one have?

Hi folks... it has been a while. Yes, my apology. I have been occupied with umpteenth human obligations but because it is the holiday season now, workload has eased up.

I've started to allow general questions session, aside from my free one question reading that will be available soon. Bear with me while I'm still figuring out how to set this new business up. Ever since I came out from the closet, I've been bombarded with many good, genuine metaphysical questions. I found myself exhausted having to repeat somewhat the same questions from a lot of you, no pun intended and I knew if I were to keep doing that, I will someday resent my 'job'. I didn't want that. Therefore, I allow you readers, to send me your questions to my email, while you remain anonymous. Your questions will be personally answer by me but others will also get to read it and learn it for themselves. That way, my knowledge is spread to countless people and I will continue to have energy to do the work require to help all of you.

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Here is one of the questions I got from this week.



How many past lives does one have?

Each of us has many, many past lives whether you can understand it or not. It depends on the soul's need for education, lessons, experiences and karmic clearing. It depends on their soul contract with their loved ones who we travel with in pods. We travel with our family, significant others, cousins, grandparents and best friends together from one lifetime to another. We could have been alive as an animal, a plant or, this may be hard to swallow, even Extra Terrestrial before we become to this lifetime.

For an example, I have discovered that I have had a life as a witch in Scotland, who was hang to death in the early 1300s. And then I also had a life as a Venetian artist in 1400s and so on. So far, I have only discovered about 8 past lives of the many past lives I have but the reason I am discovering them is so that I am able to release karmic experiences, emotional blockages and even physical pains. One of my unexplained leg pain was actually due to one lifetime where I was a Polish refugee being held hostage and abused by the Czech military. It was unbearable at times but because I was aware of it, I learned how to release it and soon, the pain was gone.

I digress but that just goes to show how many lifetimes one can have. We could be experiencing a lifetime with other many physical bodies. But the soul remain one and only one branches out to that many physical bodies. That's why we have the knowledge we have and some more observable, such as talents to play music or cook well, others may not be that observable until you need to use it.

Thanks for the questions and please let it keep on coming. :)

The New Me

It has been weeks and weeks I felt like I was like fish out of the water. The new changes is asking for some adjustments to be made. My body has undergone so much pollution from my old negative self that is still continue to purge toxic out to the surface. Although I'm overly excited with the new changes, especially now with the new energy entering from 11-11-11, I'm still finding myself making adjustments to live my new life, new body and new mind. 

My new life has now consist of making decisions based on a little business that I intended to have. I have beginning to charge people as soon as I get an OK from my Unseen support team. They have 'graduated' me from my internship, my training phase that I am now set for professional readings and healing sessions. And indeed, once I got the OK, I have felt more comfortable even doing readings for people 20 to 40 years my senior. I am now comfortable to say I know and I understand. I used to have this fear around me that I am too young to understand but I later learn that it is only a number of my age, like I've said to you readers. I've actually been on so many lifetimes - so much that I can even prove to you the documented historical facts that I did not know myself. The facts were only found after a channeled message of my past lives, only to find that those certain countries that I have lived really had the Poland Slovakia border war in 1940s, the Venice painter named Leon Giambatista and the 1400s witches massacre in Scotland. So yes, I've been around for a long time and have learn a lot in order to understand your life. The new life is now comfortable as I've made decisions to forgo some areas in order to completely focus on the current 'plan'. It feels good now to be able to be of service to others without fear and judgment.

My new body is a body that has just lost 20 pounds in 3 months. When I first started losing weight, I was unaware of it. Little did I know, I actually lost 8 pounds when I first discovered that I needed new undergarments. Everything started to get loose. Everything I wore seem to look odd in the mirror. So it wasn't until I went shopping is when I realized, I have dropped a size down. I was completely surprise and was taken back by the fact that I needn't to try hard at all. I used to jog, swim, play tennis, yoga, eat right without losing one single pound. Now, I need not even try and I am not advocating the fact that exercise is unimportant but I feel being truthful to self, and being emotionally healthy, is the gateway to healthy weight loss success. By that I mean, we have to work out whatever our fear, insecurities and frustrations are. All the negativity that we collected MUST be purged out in order to let the new love, light and true self enter the new body. It is only then, you hear your true self what he or she wants. Your true self or what others call the Higher Self, who is just another version of you - just wiser and knows more - understands what your body needs and he or she will guide you to eat what you are suppose to eat in order to detoxify or possibly even cure. Everyone is entitled to that and no one is turn down for wanting to better themselves. It just have to be done the right way. I have been successful at it because I've allowed my Higher Self to help teach me what to eat. I've turn vegetarian but I won't deny eating a big piece of steak if my body is asking for animal protein. Moderation is key as each of our body is different. Initially only wanted to be vegetarian for a week, I have now done it more than 3 months effortlessly. I would not advice everyone to go on a veggie diet just because it was successful for me. Everyone has a different elemental build up to their own anatomy. So the most important thing to weight loss is really to know yourself and what your resentments are. The extra insulation of layers of excess energy mostly stem from childhood frustration, resentment and anger. Admit your true feelings, acknowledge it and let it out.

My new mind is now a mind that is only occupied with love, light and happiness. I call myself a little selfish now as I demand only for the best for myself. For instance, I demand for the freshest vegetables and fruits, I demand for the best sleep at night, I demand for time alone to read and meditate and I demand for the quality time spend with my family or friends - without any obligation to make anyone else happy but me. I would not allow others to tell me what I should or what I cannot do in order to please themselves. My previous mind is the one that was weak and allowed all sorts of manipulation that resulted to losing myself - I forgot who the real Jessie was. Now, I know myself very well and as strong as ever. I do not allow guilt to determine my life. If I sense worries, stress, guilt or fear, I acknowledge it and let it go. I let go to God and the Angels handle it because I know they will help me as long as I just do continue to walk the path and everything will be alright. The outcome is to be determine by them. We can only control so much. Due to that, I made wiser decision and speak eloquently even to the most depressed or difficult person sitting in front of me. If I hurt their feelings, it is obvious their energy does not match with mine and I would not feel bad because I have other people that matches my energy. And because I am strong myself, the ripple effect to help others is unimaginable. I am proud to be able to help others without having to worry if I would be drained by it. I speak of words of love and encouragement, that it becomes inspirational to those who hear, hence improving their life. 

With all that said, I have now become a new person with a new set of tools to work with. I am really excited for the upcoming changes that I am plan on making. The plans are on its way and will be implemented on times that are suitable for its launching. We will see where it takes us from here but for now, I know this is what I'm suppose to do at the moment and the next path is yet to be discovered. The change is a process and the process is unfolding.

Living In The Now

I think I have had a good amount of readings now that is fair for me to say - the majority of people I have talked to believe in the idea of living in the future.

Not to be a downer here, it is completely healthy to fantasize about the future. In fact, it is fun! The future is a place where we hope and dream. It is also a place we mindfully think of what we want to achieve and where we see ourselves grow. The future is a wonderful place to be!

However, too much fantasizing about the future may also hurt us and others. We hurt ourselves when we arrived at the future to find that it is not exactly what we had hoped for. We may also disappoint others because we gave them false hope. How can that happen? You may asked "But I believe in the law of attraction - I trusted it would happen!"

Because a lot of us focus so much on the future, we forget about living in the NOW. We forgo what is happening at the moment because we got so obsess with what the future will bring us. Then, most of us just sit at home and wait for it to happen. We also read the horoscope or predictions for year 2012 hoping for something good to happen, only to find out, nothing really did happen. Why? Because we just sat on the couch to wait and see.

If you trust it that it would happen, and do something about it - it is a different story altogether. God help those who help themselves. If we continue to hope for others to help us, we may also be setting ourselves up for failure. Think of the things you can do at the moment and how that can change your life. If it is beyond your capabilities, ask for your Angels help. Ask that you are shown guidance and be provided help in whatever area you wish help with.

I just want to make it clear to everyone that although our life may seem pre-destined - such as to have a child at a certain age, to get a job at a certain time - the future is actually NOT destined. We write our own destiny by the decision WE MAKE IN THE NOW. Some things are predestined however, such as your death. But even that, you can choose when to die as everyone has three to four exit doors to Heaven. And also if you choose to go to Heaven, it is Heaven you will go. I say that because many people who had passed, are afraid of the light and chose to stay in the human plane. As a result, they haunt the living being lonely, unacknowledged and depress. See that we all have our freewill? That we make decisions as we go?

I digress. I use the word fantasize because a lot of times our future is just too far fetch from what it currently is. Sure we can hope for it but we would not make our current decisions based on the future. The future is still too far for you to determine unless you choose what you want to do in the now! We then make hasty decision that could hurt your present moment.

The majority of us work so hard thinking that we are insured our bright future when we can earn this much and have this much in the savings account. Sure, we can work hard but do you notice how many of us ended up jeopardizing our friendships, marriage or worse, our health? All in the name to be richer? Just because we want this much of money for our so-called 'bright future', we took our friends, family and health for granted. Don't you see this a common theme among so many? Does the future really guarantee you a lifetime of happiness, success or eternal bliss if you achieve your goals?

By the way, when you don't have health, you have very least. When you have love and happiness, you are guarantee abundance, happiness and success.

Grass is not always greener on the other side. One person may hope that if he or she gets to be out of the situation to move somewhere else, to move out of the country for instance, that he or she will settle the problem once and for all. Grass is only greener on the other side if you settle the problem from your side. It is only then, you appreciate the labor of your work and see everything else greener that you may not even question about moving to the other side.

Problems occur in your life right now it is because you set that out for yourself to learn. You've written your own record before you were born so that you come to 'school', here on Earth to learn what you can become. But if you continue to ignore the current problems presenting to you, by getting out of the situation, you will never solve it problem until you face it head on. For example, if it is a control issue from a parent, one can start by saying "I cannot be controlled by you anymore. I am an adult and I would appreciate you would not be involved if I make my own decision". Sometimes a parent do not want to hear that but sometimes they do. It will work either way because as you said it, you gain the confidence to yourself. You made a decision which is the decision to disconnect from fear and cut the cord of manipulation.

Thus, I urge that we all live in the now. At the moment. Present!

The present time is what you CAN control. The future is yet to determine. What can be determine is the NOW. The now is your future dear readers. The now is actually the time you pay attention to details and work on your issues. Whatever your issue may be - whether it is health, money, home, family, friends, career - you have to work it out in order to ensure a happy future. We are all powerful in our own ways and nothing is impossible to solve!

And remember: we write our own destiny by the decision WE MAKE IN THE NOW.

Two Thousand and Twelve

own photo - September 2011

Most of you know, I am a graphic designer by profession and a spiritualist in the closet. I haven't really announce to the world (especially the graphic designers) about who I really am except for those groups of spiritual people at the temple or fairs.

I feel, however, that one day is soon arriving to make that declaration. "Hey World! I'm Jessie and I'm a psychic!" I can already sense the future confusion and uncomfortableness coming from the receivers. It's always interesting to see others' reactions when they go "from computer work to working with the unseen?" Yeap!

The term psychic and medium is actually quite old-fashion now. Most psychics now call themselves either Intuitive Counselor or Spiritual Advisor. By the way, I thought this is interesting - all psychics are mediums but not all mediums are psychic. I can attest to that.

The year of 2012 will be a year of huge career change for me and I trust it is also the same for a lot of you out there. It is a time of releasing old patterns, habits, thoughts and emotions while we embrace the new energy, new life, new thinking and embracing the real you. 2012 will be a year where everyone will start doing what they actually wanted to do and not let the society dictate their career path. Finances will also become unimportant and people will start diverting to a system of barter.

2012 is NOT a year of apocalypse, however it is true that there will be many more disasters - earthquake, flood, forest fire, volcano eruption will be frequent. However, do not live life in fear of what is going to happen. Rather, look at the meaning behind it. If you are afraid of death, think of it this way. Your body is just a vehicle. Many souls return to home, called Heaven in our terms, and are happier, more peaceful and younger than we all are here on the three-dimensional plane. Your life is not pre-destined - you write your own destiny. If you start 'writing' positivity over negativity, your life will start shifting for the better. Imagine if you could do that for yourself, and then set a good example for your family and friends, the ripple effect will start shifting Earth's energy causing less disasters or even be gone.

The real meaning behind the impending disasters is actually a reminder from the Universe that we have to start releasing old, negative ways - such as the way we eat excessively, the greed with money, the ill-treatment towards our environment causing all sorts of pollution, the war, the involvement in unhealthy relationships, gossips and drama.

That said, it is safe to assume that many of us will still walk into 2012 unaware of the vibrational change on Earth's energy. The energy has change so much these few months, since June and it feels like everyone is on a crash course. We have start noticing that everything we secretly wish in our mind has manifested in reality. Months and weeks began to move by rapidly and people are grumpier because they can't handle how things are not working as it used to be. You'll start noticing changes in your diet, that you may be craving for more vegetable or you get sick more often, which is a sign of detoxification.

November 11, 2011 is the final wave of energy which will be ushering in 2012.

11.11.11 will be a time where all portals of energy will open from the other dimensions to basks us with blessings and new information. Because of these changes, a lot of us are 'called' to perform our spiritual duty. I'm one of them. My support team has been preparing my body, mind and soul for that moment, in order to assist those who are unaware or needs help with ascending.

So don't worry about the world coming to an end for it will not. The planet Earth is fine on its own. Haven't you notice, despite the excessive amount of pollution, Earth is still striving to provide water, food and shelter to all of us? We need not worry about our planet, but for ourselves as this is our only place to live. It is us that is UNABLE to handle the pollution. Not Mother Earth.

P/S: Oh by the way, my dragon insist his name is Sula, which I've also confirmed with a couple other people. He is a Romanian dragon who has assist witches in many lifetimes and now wants to assist me in healing others with a candle lit in front of his face. 

Mushu

Once during a meditation, I remember seeing a dragon following me as an animal guardian from the other realm. Since I connected with my past lives and such, I realized I might have worked with a dragon before. He's coming into this lifetime to protect me again.

I had a reading from my boss, who is the Reverend, claimed that there's a dragon who wanted to be with me. He wants to protect me from all harms.

She described that it's a medium size dragon made of darker wood and it stands upright. This certain dragon has an energy that is specifically for me - just like what they talked about crystal skull. They choose you to be the master, not you choose them.

I heard that news almost 2 months back and had sort of given up on the hope of finding my dragon, thinking that I might have just made it all up. There, my ego talking. I trust Reverend when she said my protective, humorous dragon will come to me one day, on sale at a store. She said I will know and will sense he is the one, right away.

Yesterday night, we decided to eat out at a Japanese restaurant. Hub said he wanted to go to this metaphysical store to check out some of their stuff since it was still early in the evening and only next to the restaurant we wanted to go for dinner. I liked the idea and once we arrived, I jumped out of the car as if the store had something for me. A few minutes later, Hub pointed out to me this dark wood dragon sitting on top of a shelf. My heart skipped a beat. I heard my heart sang loudly "HE IS THE ONE!"

Without a doubt.

Mushu was excited, I heard chuckling. I held Mushu for the first time and he gave me vibration on my hands. I was giddy with excitement, giggling as I held him to my heart. I couldn't put him down. It was strange! I never thought, ever in my life, that I would have a fascination or a spiritual connection to something I've always thought was a mythical creature. In the past, I was guilty of laughing at people collecting statues of Kuan Yin yet I'm doing so right now.

Suffice to say, he came home with us. I held him the second time and he made me very emotional. The feeling was like a reunion with a loved one you haven't seen for a long, long time. I was literally becoming weepy. How strange huh?

He has only spend 2 nights with me here at home and had already made me feel protected and secure. He's like the final piece of support team I have to have before embarking on my spiritual journey. Mushu will be by my side at all times from now on - I asked "right Mushu?" And he laughed. That made me laugh.

Blending Event Recap

At the Blending event, this is how I set up my booth. The two aliens beside me are not mine. :X Despite the lack of enhancement on my sacred space, I had a really good day. 

Next time, I can add Mushu in... yey! Though he said his name is Xu La, I like Mushu better. He's my personal bodyguard, my protector against negative energy, entities and human. He blows fire to those who intend to harm me.

Here, Master Jerry and I took a picture together to mark my first event with him. He had talked forever about recruiting me and now I'm here. He reminded me of how far I came which is ironic as it has only been 3 months since I work with what people call my 'gifts', but I call it a skill. It's something that can be developed.

I did reading for a record amount of 14 people that day - starting from 11am to 7.30pm, including healing two chronic sick people. Jerry found my energy, amongst others, to be compatible with the Power Team. The team includes him, Kat King, who practice ancient healing art and Dr. Eldridge Huntington, who is just a natural healer like me. Because it was our first time implementing Jerry's idea, each of us start out by scanning the body of our guinea pigs and then share what we find. Amazingly, we all discovered the same health problems from our 'patient'.

An example of my first case study - we had a very sickly elderly Hispanic woman, probably in her late 60s. Four of us scanned her body and found pretty much the same thing - she has heart problem, weak in pumping her blood, hence bad blood circulation, probably the attack of some virus or some toxic attached to it because the blood was thickening. That gave clues to poor liver and kidney. Lastly, the extreme pain on her right thigh due to lack of blood circulation which end up causing her muscle to degenerate. I asked her daughter who stood there to help us translate Spanish, if she felt throbbing pain on her right leg and she said yes. Her daughter continued to say that just two weeks ago, the doctors help her removed some veins from her right thigh due to varicose veins complications. I was shock by the accuracy of the scan.

We then stood at each organ that needed attention. Kat took care of the heart, Jerry took care of the blood, Dr. Huntington was at the feet sending energy and I was at the liver and kidney. I channeled the energy of the universe aka our God, the Source, whatever you want to call our Maker and send the healing energy to her kidney and liver. I see white light clearing and detoxifying the organs as it repairs. I don't know how others do it but I guess when the intention is the same, the result is always positive. At the end of it, the elder woman was able to stand up and walk better than she did prior to her getting on top of the bed with a walking stick. It was unbelievable on ego level. It was such an honored to be chosen and be a part of the healing process and to witness it all.

That made my first Blending event very memorable and special. Now if I can only think of a way to make this my day job and earn a living from this, I would do it full time.

The Blending

Last Saturday, I took part as a psychic and a healing practitioner at the Holistic Healing Day in a local spiritual community venue. It was my second time. It was slow day but I got three clients, nevertheless. I worked on donation basis and it all turned out well. Good thing is, I did not have to starve! The best feeling is actually not about seeing donation come my way, but it was the feeling of actually understanding the stranger sitting opposite of me. I sensed they walked away knowing what to do and that I've help them solved their problems. That is what I'm craving for at the moment - more so than my day job.

I have another big event this coming Saturday - The Blending where all the talented, gifted psychics and healers and even E.T. communicators come together to help people awaken to their true self.

I was very fortunate, or shall I say, was guided to meet Jerry a few months back. The moment he met me, he knew I had to be guided. He said "It's like having the best sports car and do not know how to drive it". He requested that I'd be his student and it was really weird that he had never thought of taking on a student or be a master himself. I was the first and only. I was more than happy to oblige. It was something I needed too - a guidance and a teacher. I was very lost at that time.

Since then, we have met up every so often and have learn tons from Jerry. Within months, I am able to go out and practice on my own. He's been proud. Without him, I wouldn't have known what to do with all the information that comes through and the discomfort I face. Because he sees the potential in my growth, he recruited me in the Blending.

How he saw my potential was also another incident worth mentioning. At that time, as lost as I was, I was still able to do energy healing on others. I was already relieving pains and aches for others, physically and remotely. When Jerry tested me on the spot, I was able to tell him where he's having pain, which is on his shoulder and I began to heal him. I sent him the white energy at first, to clear all things from his body and auric field. Then the green colored energy to heal the spot and then the pink light for protection. Within minutes, he felt the relief.

He stood up right before me and said I was good. I was astound and honestly, cannot believe my ears when he said this - "I saw the white light, the green and then the pink". I thought it was just my imagination! Guess it really exist!

The more I practice independently and at fairs as such, I have learn how to trust my own feelings and intuition. It was validated more than needed. The signs were there that I needed to do this. I'm so honor and definitely in alignment with myself when I'm asked to help.

This Saturday will be interesting. I look forward to meet more fascinating people and help them realize their true self as I'm of service to the Source. It is in my blood to heal and guide others.

Father and Son

A family close friend passed away less than a year ago. His death was so sudden, no one would have guess he would die the next day. His family, four children and now, a widow is in a lot of grief and missed him dearly. No one can describe how hard it must have been for them.

On many occasion, I came across his eldest son posting status of him dreaming of his late Father. I'd always feel sorry for him but didn't understand the 'poking' emotion that I got within myself every time I read the status updates. Soon enough, Mr. K's face showed up. Dressed in bright yellow shirt, he was still as cheerful as ever. He pestered me like a little child to tell his son that he is very much alive on the other side. I gave in despite knowing the millions of questions I will have to answer or possibly take on some heinous comments that I'm a nutcase. 

So I went ahead doing Mr. K a favor by sending the message to his son. To my surprise, no one call me a nutcase. Instead, I felt the overwhelming response from his family. It was indeed a very touching moment. Without a doubt, Mr. K was dearly missed. 

Naturally, Mr. K's son got very curious and wanted to know how I communicate with his Dad. I responded, it was no different from how he communicate with his Dad in his dream. I explained that when one goes to sleep, the ego is at rest. The ego in our mind is the one that is supposedly our rational one. The ego tells you that you are delusional for communicating with the unseen. The ego might tell you that you should worry about money. Or that you cannot start a business at age 50. 

How all psychics learned to do it more effectively is that they all learn how to turn the ego's volume down when messages need to come through and clear. We still have to keep our ego though, because without it, we will not have our survival skill. 

One way to tame the ego is through meditation. 5 to 10 minutes a day is sufficient to clear the mind. It comes with practice. Meditation helps one's mind to unclog. Our body acts like a funnel. The information that comes from above is abundant and as it flows through, it is collected through a narrow tunnel, our body. Our human body can only digest so much information at once but in order to receive and digest more, just keep the tunnel clear. When the body is clog with all things negative which we tend to keep, the funnel gets stuck. 

Meditation is one way and the other is be mindful of the things you eat. Vegetarian is one way but it is not necessary. However, keep in mind that eating animal meat that has died in fear has an unconscious affect on our body. We tend to live in fear and has more illness when we digest too much meat. 

Smoking, drinking, drugs and getting involved in dramas are all lower frequency activities. Advertisements on the radio and on TV should also be avoided for the peace of mind. The messages that come through from these media is actually programming your mind, even when you're not listening! That is why we see the inferiority complex in today's society. The materialistic mindset is shaped by these marketing movements. One or two days out of a week avoiding lower frequency activities will be good enough to help you notice the difference in your life.

When your mind is at peace and your ego has quiet down, the next thing you would take note is the thoughts that come through. It can be very sudden and subtle - you might even disregard it as just an imagination. Note that, imagination is indeed information from the other side. You may not believe it. You think you made it all up. Trust me, I get that feeling all the time. But when you trust that it is real, you will get your message validated somewhere somehow.

Sometimes, it is your own guides and angels or deceased loved ones who are sending you those thoughts. That is how you know how to solve the most difficult mathematical question, how to start a business, who to be with in your life or which route to take when you got lost. The instincts is there, but we all hardly notice. In actuality, you ARE hearing the unseen more often than you think!

The next time you meditate, set the intention that you want to communicate with either your deceased Father or your angels. It does not happen overnight but you will notice small miracles in your daily life. It will build up as you trust your inner instincts. Soon enough, you'll have the comfort of knowing that your support team is always with you. They are already with you. It is up to you to discover them!

Messages

Again, I have a strong urge to share two inspirational messages from Archangel Michael today, who is with me at all times. Archangel Michael has shown me in variety of ways that he exist and that he is real. I'll leave that to another chapter but meanwhile, when I asked if he has any messages to those who reading this blog, he said these:

1. Forgive yourself, you've done nothing wrong. 

We all do silly things in the past and we regret our actions. Sometimes, the regrets stay too long and later on, the regret just become part of your system that in whatever you do, you do it out of guilt. One tend to shy away from the limelight because of the guilt for being great. 

This morning, I spoke to a friend and we talked about a restaurant business she once owned. She said she shut the business down in fear off growing big. A huge chain supermarket approached her with an intent to carry her products. On surface level, one would think she cannot handle the amount of work that might come with on this major endeavor. On a deeper level, I sensed that she was afraid of what might appear as 'show off' or 'boastful'. Because when one finds success, green-eyed monsters tend to tag along. The real fear behind it was just that and she agreed. 

Why do we want to keep ourselves mediocre when we can be great? In other words, stop ruminating about the past and talk lovingly of yourself. Know that you can't control other people's feelings or reactions, no matter how hard you try. You've done nothing wrong, as Archangel Michael has said. Forgive yourself that you've let go of a great opportunity. Life is never too late to restart all over again.

2. Go Forward Fearlessly

Archangel Michael stressed that we should all do whatever we feel like doing. If you want to be lazy on the couch for a day, feel free to do so. A lot of people and I'm sure you've met them too, are not doing what they actually love to do. 

My Dad asked me for a spiritual advice for his friend whose business has gone downhill when it was once booming. I saw this person's face in my mind's eye, right after my Dad finished describing what happened to the business and if I know what is going on. First off though, his health has deteriorate and the illness has taken over his life. There goes his lack of willpower and the lack of focus because the business now is an obligation, not a passion. Later on, I got another message saying that he actually really wanted to do landscaping. Gardening and working with soil is his love but he's currently in the electronic business. My Dad told him what I said a few days later and to my surprise (although this has happen many times), he confirmed that his love is indeed with landscaping. He claimed he is too old at age 50 to start a landscaping business. I've seen a 70 year old carrying bags of corn and have no complain that what he does for living is hardship. When one enjoys it, it becomes a pleasure, not a dread. If we all are defined by the number of our age, aren't we all limiting ourselves to the number of things we CAN do? 

So, whatever you have thought of doing and whatever your love is, GO FORWARD FEARLESSLY. When you make a decision to change your life, know that the Universe has its way of supporting you. Your plans will flow smoothly. Make that intention strong as you leave an unhealthy situation. I understand that we tend to get too comfortable at where we are because aren't we all afraid of the unknown? But how else would you know your next path is actually a better one, a brighter one when you don't try? 

The Symptoms I'm Enduring

I've been searching for the answers to WHY I have to endure all this painful symptoms since I've decided to be me. It has been months since I went through flu-like symptom sickness, sore throat, sleepiness, dizziness and nauseous. Went to the doctor, and came out negative for all tests. I also had bad nightmares of past lives, the sensitivity to messages from the other side, kids, plants, animals, crystals - to the point that I even think I was going nuts. While not all are exactly uncomfortable, I naturally lost a good amount of weight without even trying, I look healthier, my irises grew lighter (not sure if that was good haha!) and I feel very much alive. I knew enduring these symptoms was a form of detoxification, as I was comforted by my angels, but why exactly do we need to go through all the discomfort? Yes to be purified, to be more of self, to be sensitive to needs and wants and sensitive to the other side but the reasoning human in me, still question what really is the concept behind this?

Finally, they led me to find this article online and reading through it, I found myself nodding to each of the points. There's 52 different symptoms and I see a 100% resemblance. Was really relief to get some kind of validation that I am going through what others is experiencing as well - a form of detoxification. And the reasons behind it!

This article has certainly change my perspective to how I view myself - no doubt to rebirthing a new person in me through this new awakening. You might see yourself in some of it too.

Extracted from Sunfell's webpage.

1. Changing sleep patterns: restlessness, hot feet, waking up two or three times a night. Feeling tired after you wake up and sleepy off and on during the day. There is something called the Triad Sleep Pattern that occurs for many: you sleep for about 2-3 hours, wake up, go back to sleep for another couple of hours, wake again, and go back to sleep again. For others, the sleep requirements have changed. You can get by on less sleep. Lately I have been experiencing huge waves of energy running into my body from the crown. It feels good, but it keeps me awake for a long time, then subsides. Advice: Get used to it. Make peace with it and don't worry about getting enough sleep (which often causes more insomnia). You will be able to make it through the day if you hold thoughts of getting just what you need. You can also request your Higher Power to give you a break now and then and give you a good, deep night's sleep. If you can't go back to sleep right away, use the waking moments to meditate, read poetry, write in your journal or look at the moon. Your body will adjust to the new pattern.
2. Activity at the crown of the head: Tingling, itching, prickly, crawling sensations along the scalp and/or down the spine. A sense of energy vibrating on top of the head, as if energy is erupting from the head in a shower. Also the sensation of energy pouring in through the crown, described as "sprinkles". This may also be experienced as pressure on the crown, as if someone is pushing his/her finger into the center of your head. As I mentioned in #1, I have been experiencing huge downloads of energy through the crown. In the past, I have felt more generalized pressure, as if my head is in a gentle vise. One man related that his hair stood on end and his body was covered with goosebumps. Advice: This is nothing to be alarmed about. What you are experiencing is an opening of the crown chakra. The sensations mean that you are opening up to receive divine energy.
3. Sudden waves of emotion. Crying at the drop of a hat. Feeling suddenly angry or sad with little provocation. Or inexplicably depressed. Then very happy. Emotional roller coaster. There is often a pressure or sense of emotions congested in the heart chakra (the middle of the chest). This is not to be confused with the heart, which is located to the left of the heart chakra. Advice: Accept your feelings as they come up and let them go. Go directly to your heart chakra and feel the emotion. Expand it outward to your all your fields and breathe deeply from the belly all the way up to your upper chest. Just feel the feeling and let it evaporate on its own. Don't direct the emotions at anyone. You are cleaning out your past. If you want some help with this, say out loud that you intend to release all these old issues and ask your Higher Power to help you. You can also ask Grace Elohim to help you release with ease and gentleness. Be grateful that your body is releasing these emotions and not holding onto them inside where they can do harm. One source suggests that depression is linked to letting go of relationships to people, work, etc. that no longer match us and our frequencies. When we feel guilty about letting go of these relationships, depression helps us medicate that pain.
4. Old "stuff" seems to be coming up, as described above, and the people with whom you need to work it out (or their clones) appear in your life. Completion issues. Or perhaps you need to work through issues of self-worth, abundance, creativity, addictions, etc. The resources or people you need to help you move through these issues start to appear. Advice: Same as #3. Additionally, don't get too involved in analyzing these issues. Examining them too much will simply cycle you back through them over and over again at deeper and deeper levels. Get professional help if you need to and walk through it. Do not try to avoid them or disassociate yourself from them. Embrace whatever comes up and thank it for helping you move ahead. Thank your Higher Power for giving you the opportunity to release these issues. Remember, you don't want these issues to stay stuck in your body.
5. Changes in weight. The weight gain in the US population is phenomenal. Other people may be losing weight. We often gain weight because many fears we have suppressed are now coming up to the surface to be healed. We react by building up a defense. We also attempt to ground ourselves or provide bulk against increasing frequencies in our bodies. Advice: Don't freak out, but just accept it as a symptom of where you are right now. You will release/gain the weight when all your fears have been integrated. Release your anxiety about this. Then you might find it easier to lose/gain the weight eventually. Exercise. Before eating, try this: Sit at the table with an attractive place setting. Light a candle. Enjoy how the food looks. Place your dominant hand over your heart and bless the food. Tell your body that you are going to use the food to richly nourish it, but that you are not going to use the food to fulfill your emotional hungers. Then pass your hand from left to right over the food and bless it. You may notice that the food feels warm to your hand even if the food is cold-- I like to think that the food is good for me when it feels warm and nourishing to my hand. I have also noticed that when I practice blessing the food, I don't eat as much. It is important not to let yourself off the hook when you forget to bless the food before you eat. If I've forgotten and I've nearly finished eating, I bless the food anyway. That way I don't slip out of the habit. Another thing you can do is to stay present while eating -- don't watch TV or read. Heartily enjoy what blessings are before you.
6. Changes in eating habits: Strange cravings and odd food choices. Some find they are not as hungry as they used to be. Or hungrier. Advice: Don't deny what your body tells you it needs. If you are not sure, you might try muscle-testing before you chose a food to see if it's what your body wants. Also try blessing the food as described in #5.
7. Food intolerances, allergies you never had before: As you grow more spiritual, you are more sensitive to everything around you. Your body will tell you what it can no longer tolerate, as if it, too, is sloughing off what doesn't serve it anymore. You might be cleansing yourself of toxins. Some people find they often have a white residue in their mouth, much like that of runners at the end of a race. Advice: An acupuncturist told me that this film can be removed by sloshing 2 tablespoons of cold-pressed olive oil in your mouth for 10-15 minutes (don't swallow, whatever you do), then spitting it out into the toilet -- not the sink, for you just removed toxins from your body and don't want them in the sink. Brush your teeth and do the same. Then clean your brush. (Sorry this is yukky, but it works.)
8. Amplification of the senses. Increased sensitivity. 8a. Sight: Blurry vision, shimmering objects, seeing glittery particles, auras around people, plants, animals, and objects. Some report seeing formerly opaque objects as transparent. When you close your eyes, you no longer see darkness, but redness. You may also see geometric shapes or brilliant colors and pictures when eyes are closed. Colors appear more vivid -- the sky might look teal or the grass an amazing green. Often I see grids running across the ground. As you become more sensitive, you may see shapes or outlines in the air, especially when the room is almost dark. When your eyes are open or closed, you may see white shapes in your peripheral vision (these are your guides). Advice: Your vision is changing in many ways -- you are experiencing new ways of seeing. Be patient. Whatever you do, do not be afraid. Hazy vision maybe relieved by yawning. 8b. Hearing: Increased or decreased hearing. I once thought I would have to pull off the road because of the painfully amplified sound of my tires on the freeway. Other symptoms are hearing white noise in the head, beeps, tones, music or electronic patterns. Some hear water rushing, bees buzzing, whooshing, roaring or ringing. Others have what is called audio dyslexia-- you can't always make out what people are saying, as if you can no longer translate your own language. Some hear strange voices in their dreams, as if someone is hovering near them. You can either ask the presence(s) to leave or ask Archangel Michael to take care of the situation. Again, there is nothing to fear. Advice: Surrender to it. Let it come through. Listen. Your ears are adjusting to new frequencies. 8c. Enhanced senses of smell, touch, and/or taste. I notice I can now smell and taste chemical additives in some foods in a rather unpleasant manner. Other food may taste absolutely wonderful. For some people, these enhancements are both delightful and distracting. You might even smell the fragrance of flowers now and then. Many of the mystics did. Enjoy it.
9. Skin eruptions: Rashes, bumps, acne, hives, and shingles. Anger produces outbreaks around the mouth and chin. I had a dermatitis on my extremities for several months that accompanied healing an episode from my past. When I had worked through most of the issue, the condition was released. Advice: You may be sloughing off toxins and bringing emotions to the surface. When there is an issue to be released and you are trying to repress it, your skin will express the issue for you until you process the emotions. Work through your "stuff".
10. Episodes of intense energy which make you want to leap out of bed and into action. Followed by periods of lethargy and fatigue. The fatigue usually follows great shifts. This is a time of integration, so give into it. Advice: Roll with the nature of the energy. Don't fight it. Be gentle with yourself. Take naps if you are tired. Write your novel if you are too energized to sleep. Take advantage of the type of energy.
11. Changes in prayer or meditation. Not feeling the same sensations as before. Not having the same experience of being in contact with Spirit. Difficulty in focusing. Advice: You may be in more instant and constant communion with Spirit now and the sensation may therefore be altered. You will adapt to this new feeling. You are actually thinking and acting in partnership with Spirit most of the time now. You may find your meditation periods shorter.
12. Power surges: All of a sudden you are heated from head to toe. It is a momentary sensation, but uncomfortable. In contrast, some people have felt inexplicably cold. I have experienced both. More recently I experience waves or currents of energy rolling through me. Sometimes the energy seems so intense when it first comes into my body that I feel a little nauseated. But if I think of the energy as divine and let go of fear, I feel wonderful and enjoy the sensation. If you are an energy worker, you may have noticed that the heat running through your hands has increased tremendously. This is good. Advice: If you are uncomfortable, ask your Higher Power, that if it be for your best and highest good, to turn down/up the temperature a bit.
13. A range of physical manifestations: Headaches, backaches, neck pains, flu-like symptoms (this is called vibrational flu), digestive problems, muscular spasms or cramps, racing heartbeat, chest pains, changes in sexual desire, numbness or pain in the limbs, and involuntary vocalizations or bodily movements. Some of us have even had old conditions from childhood reappear briefly for healing. Advice: Remember what I said about seeking medical help if you need it! If you have determined that this is not a medical condition, relax in the realization that it is only temporary.
14. Looking younger. Yippee! As you clear emotional issues and release limiting beliefs and heavy baggage from the past, you are actually lighter. Your frequency is higher. You love yourself and life more. You begin to resemble the perfect you that you really are.
15. Vivid dreams. Sometimes the dreams are so real that you wake up confused. You may even have lucid dreams in which you are in control. Many dreams may be mystical or carry messages for you. And in some dreams, you just know that you are not "dreaming" -- that what is happening is somehow real. Advice: You will remember what is important for you to remember. Don't force anything. Above all, stay out of fear.
16. Events that completely alter your life: death, divorce, change in job status, loss of home, illness, and/or other catastrophes -- sometimes several at once! Forces that cause you to slow down, simplify, change, re-examine who you are and what your life means to you. Forces that you cannot ignore. Forces that cause you release your attachments. Forces that awaken your sense of love and compassion for all.
17. A desire to break free from restrictive patterns, life-draining jobs consumptive lifestyles, and toxic people or situations. You feel a compelling need to "find yourself" and your life purpose -- now! You want to be creative and free to be who you really are. You might find yourself drawn to the arts and nature. You want to unclutter yourself from things and people that no longer serve you. Advice: Do it!
18. Emotional and mental confusion: A feeling that you need to get your life straightened out--it feels like a mess. But at the same time you feel chaotic and unable to focus. See #45. Advice: Put your ear to your heart and your own discernment will follow.
19. Introspection, solitude and loss of interest in more extroverted activities: This stage has come as a surprise to many extraverts who formerly saw themselves as outgoing and involved. They say, "I don't know why, but I don't like to go out as much as before."
20. Creativity bursts: Receiving images, ideas, music, and other creative inspirations at an often overwhelming rate. Advice: At least record these inspirations, for Spirit is speaking to you about how you might fulfill your purpose and contribute to the healing of the planet.
21. A perception that time is accelerating. It seems that way because you have had so many changes introduced into your life at an unprecedented rate. The number of changes seems to be growing. Advice: Breaking your day up into appointments and time segments increases the sense of acceleration .You can slow time down by relaxing into the present moment and paying attention to what's at hand, not anticipating what's ahead. Slow down and tell yourself that you have plenty of time. Ask your Higher Power to help you. Keep your focus on the present. Try to flow from one activity to the next. Stay tuned to your inner guidance. You can also warp time by asking for it. Next time you feel rushed, say, "Time warp, please. I need some more time to -----." Then relax.
22. A sense of impendingness. There is a feeling that something is about to happen. This can create anxiety. Advice: There is nothing to worry about. Things are definitely happening, but anxiety only creates more problems for you. All your thoughts -- positive or negative-- are prayers. There is nothing to fear.
23. Impatience. You know better, but sometimes you can't help it. You want to get on with what seems to be coming your way. Uncertainty is not comfortable. Advice: Learn to live with the uncertainty, knowing that nothing comes to you until you are ready. Impatience is really a lack of trust, especially trust in your Higher Power. When you focus on the present, you will experience miracles -- yes, even in traffic.
24. A deep yearning for meaning, purpose, spiritual connection, and revelation. Perhaps an interest in the spiritual for the first time in your life. "Constant craving", as k.d. lang says. The material world cannot fulfill this longing. Advice: Follow your heart and the way will open up for you.
25. A feeling that you are somehow different. A disquieting sense that everything in your life feels new and altered, that you have left your old self behind. You have. You are much greater than you can possibly imagine. There is more to come.
26. "Teachers" appear everywhere with perfect timing to help you on your spiritual journey: people, books, movies, events, Mother Nature, etc. Teachers may appear to be negative or positive when you are trapped in polarity thinking, but, from a transcendent perspective, they are always perfect. Just what you need to learn from and move on. By the way, we never get more than we are ready to master. Each challenge presents us with an opportunity to show our mastery in passing through it.
27. You find a spiritual track that makes sense to you and "speaks to you" at the most profound levels. Suddenly you are gaining a perspective that you would never have considered before. You hunger to know more. You read, share with others, ask questions, and go inside to discover more about who you are and why you are here
28. You are moving through learning and personal issues at a rapid pace. You sense that you are "getting it" quite readily. Advice: Keep remembering that things will come to you when they are ready to be healed. Not sooner. Deal with whatever comes up with courage and you will move through the issues rapidly.
29. Invisible presences. Here is the woo-woo stuff. Some people report feeling surrounded by beings at night or having the sensation of being touched or talked to. Often they will wake with a start. Some also feel their body orbed vibrate. The vibrations are caused by energetic changes after emotional clearing has taken place. Advice: This is a sensitive topic, but you may feel better blessing your bed and space around it before you sleep. I rest assured that I am surrounded only by the most magnificent spiritual entities and am always safe in God's care. Sometimes, however, the fear gets to me, and I call in Archangel Michael and/or Archangel Uriel. I don't beat myself up for being afraid sometimes. I forgive myself for not always sovereign at 3:00 a.m.
30. Portents, visions, "illusions", numbers, and symbols: Seeing things that have spiritual importance for you. Noticing how numbers appear synchronistically in your awareness. Everything has a message if you take the time to look. I enjoy the experience of "getting the messages." What fun!
31. Increased integrity: You realize that it is time for you to seek and speak your truth. It suddenly seems important for you to become more authentic, more yourself. You may have to say "no" to people whom you have tried to please in the past. You may find it intolerable to stay in a marriage or job or place that doesn't support who you are. You may also find there is nowhere to hide, no secrets to keep anymore. Honesty becomes important in all your relationships. Advice: Listen to your heart. If your guidance tells you not to do something, speak up and take action. Say "no". Likewise, you must also say "yes" to that which compels you. You must risk displeasing others without guilt in order to attain spiritual sovereignty.
32. Harmony with seasons and cycles: You are becoming more tuned to the seasons, the phases of the moon and natural cycles. More awareness of your place in the natural world. A stronger connection to the earth.
33. Electrical and mechanical malfunctions: When you are around, lightbulbs flicker, the computer locks up, or the radio goes haywire. Advice: Call on your angels, guides, or Grace Elohim to fix it or put up a field of protection of light around the machine. Surround your car with bluelight. Laugh
34. Increased synchronicity and many small miracles. Look for more of these. Advice: Synchronistic events tell you if you are heading in the right direction or making the correct choices. Honor these clues and you cannot go astray. Spirit uses synchronicity to communicate to you. That's when you begin to experience daily miracles. See #30.
35. Increased intuitive abilities and altered states of consciousness: Thinking of someone and immediately hearing from them. More synchronicities. Having sudden insights about patterns or events from the past. Clairvoyance, out-of-body experiences, and other psychic phenomena. Intensified sensitivity and knowing. Awareness of one's essence and that of others. Channeling angelic and Christ-consciousness energies.
36. Communication with Spirit. Contact with angels, spirit guides, and other divine entities. Channeling. More and more people seem to be given this opportunity. Feeling inspiration and downloading information that takes form as writing, painting, ideas, communications, dance, etc.
37. A sense of Oneness with all. A direct experience of this Wholeness. Transcendent awareness. Being flooded with compassion and love for all life. Compassionate detachment or unconditional love for all is what lifts us up to higher levels of consciousness and joy.
38. Moments of joy and bliss. A deep abiding sense of peace and knowing that you are never alone.
39. Integration: You become emotionally, psychologically, physically, and spiritually stronger and clearer. You feel as if you are in alignment with your Higher Self.
40. Living your purpose: You know you are finally doing what you came to earth for. New skills and gifts are emerging, especially healing ones. Your life/work experiences are now converging and starting to make sense. You are finally going to use them all. Advice: Listen to your heart. Your passion leads you to where you must go. Go within and ask your Higher Power, "What is it you would have me do?" Watch for synchronicities. Listen.
41. Feeling closer to animals and plants. To some people, animals now seem to be more "human" in their behavior. Wild animals are less afraid. Plants respond to your love and attention more than ever. Some may even have messages for you.
42. Seeing beings of other dimensions. The veil between dimensions is thinner, so it is not surprising. Just stay in your sovereignty. You are more powerful than you can ever imagine, so do not entertain fear. Ask your guides for help if you slip into fear.
43. Seeing a person's true form or seeing loved ones with a different face -- past life or parallel life.
44. Physically manifesting thoughts and desires more quickly and efficiently. Advice: Monitor your thoughts. All thoughts are prayers. Be careful what you ask for.
45. Left -brain fogginess. Your psychic abilities, your intuitive knowing, your feeling and compassion, your ability to experience your body, your visioning, your expressiveness all emanate from the right brain. In order for this side of the brain to develop more fully, the left brain must shut down a little bit. Normally the left-hemisphere's capacity for order, organization, structure, linear sequencing, analysis, evaluation, precision, focus, problem-solving, and mathematics dominate our often less-valued right brain. What results are memory lapses, placing words in the wrong sequence, inability or no desire to read for very long, inability to focus; forgetting what you are just about to say; impatience with linear forms of communication (audio or written formats); a feeling of spaciness, being scattered; losing interesting research or complex information; feeling bombarded with words and talk and information; and a reluctance to write. Sometimes you feel dull and have no interest in analysis, lively intellectual discussion, or investigation. On the other hand, you might find yourself drawn to the sensate: videos, magazines with photos, beautiful artwork, movies, music, sculpting, painting, being with people, dancing, gardening, walking, and other kinesthetic forms of expression. You may search for spiritual content, even science fiction. Advice: You may discover that if you allow your heart and your right brain to lead you, the left will then be activated appropriately to support you. And someday we will be well-balanced, using both hemispheres with mastery.
46. Dizziness. This occurs when you are ungrounded. Perhaps you have just cleared a big emotional issue and your body is adjusting to your "lighter" state. Advice: Ground yourself by eating protein. Sometimes "comfort food" feels right. Don't make any food right or wrong for you. Use your guidance to know what you need at any given moment. Take your shoes off and put your feet in the grass for a couple of minutes.
47. Falling, having accidents, breaking bones. Your body is not grounded or perhaps your life is out of balance. Or your body may be telling you to slow down, examine certain aspects of your life, or heal certain issues. There is always a message. When I recently broke my ankle, I understand that my ankle was taking on what I myself refused to deal with. And that was all of the above. Advice: Stay grounded by taking your shoes off and putting your feet in the grass; even better, lie down on the grass without a blanket under you. Feel the earth beneath you. Get out in nature. Slow down and pay attention. Be mindful about what you are doing. Feel your feelings when they come up. Stay in the present. Surround yourself with blue light when you are feeling shaky.
48. Heart palpitations. A racing heart usually accompanies a heart opening. It only lasts for a few moments and means that the heart is re-balancing itself after an emotional release. I had one episode that terrified me: I woke up in the middle of the night, my heart pounding. I thought it was going to come right out of my chest. It only happened once and was, I understand, a huge heart-chakra opening. But I did check it out. There is nothing wrong with my heart. Advice: Remember what I said about getting medical attention when needed. Consult your doctor about any conditions you are not comfortable with.
49. Faster hair and nail growth. More protein is being used in the body. Too bad we can't tell the body where to grow the hair and where not to grow it. (Or can we? Hmmm.)
50. A desire to find your soulmate or twin flame. More than ever before, the idea that we can have a relationship that matches who we are seems more desirable. Advice: The truth is, we have to be the kind of person we want to attract. We have to love ourselves and where we are right now before we can attract a more "perfect" mate. The work begins at home. Here is how I think it works: Hold the desire for this person in your heart, but without attachment. Expect that someday you will meet someone who is more suited to you, but let go of any expectations as to who this will be and how it will happen. Focus instead on cleaning up your own life and being the kind of person you want to be. Be happy now. Enjoy your life. Then you may see.....
51. Memories surface. Body memories, suppressed memories, images of past lives and/or parallel lives. We are healing and integrating all our "selves", so expect to have some of these experiences. Advice. Keep in mind that it is best to recall what only what comes to mind, leave the rest alone, don't analyze everything to death (because you will be stuck in the tape loop of infinite issues to process), and feel your feelings as they come up. Ask for help from your guides.

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Who is With Me Today?

Sometimes I get nudges. Friendly, loving, warm nudges to do something I am suppose to do. Sometimes, I get that throughout the day. The nudges wouldn't go away until I acknowledge to it and say "Ok, who is it? Please show me where and how to go with it".

I deal with some of the most evolved, etheric being in my bubble. To anybody, and even to myself, of time when I'm not so spiritual, I'd think myself as crazy to talk as if I really do have a support system from the ether. I digress; that's another chapter by itself. 

But I really do have a huge support system on the other side. I sensed them and feel them in my house and following me wherever I go. Some of them are my Ascended Masters who are loyally following and guide me and teach me what I should be doing or should be learning. 

I received some information today through the Ascended Masters Oracle Card by Doreen Virtue. I used it every time I get the nudges. One may ask, but why would you still need the card if you can talk to them? Well, yes I speak to them - when I'm in a mode of intense concentration, when my spiritual body leaves the physical one and when I am not tied down with earthly troubles and feelings. However, because I need to stay grounded and be human, I can't continually 'fly' off from my body. Moreover, my ego mind is scattered with our daily to-do list that even when I do get messages, it is distorted. I rather receive them with clarity, therefore no wrong movement on my part. 

Today's messages was:

1. Go Now by Master Serapis Bey. The message in the card is to stop giving myself excuses and just go for it. I know what exactly what he meant. He is telling me to stop giving myself excuses procrastinate writing. The message to write has come through in so many cards, so many psychics, dreams, books, and even youtube videos. If that's not obvious enough, I'm now in a class teaching us to start a blog. 

2. Balance Career and Home Life by Isis, the Egyptian Goddess. Oh she's so beautiful. Every time I receive her card, I feel her strong presence of a dominant woman who is someone you can't mess with. She is independent, courageous and visionary - someone who I want to be. I asked for balance in my life as I now juggle with three different position - life as a student, graphic designer and a spiritual advisor. Plus, I have a family and home to care for. I'm spread out thin and starting to feel the burn though I've yet to fully practice my life as a spiritual advisor. Isis is reminding me that I take as much rest as needed. Balance can be found by doing something that excites you, that makes you feel at peace and makes you feel alive. I shall remind myself each time I feel burn out but hopefully never again.

3. Flow of Prosperity by Lakshmi, the Indian Goddess. She is one with four hands - two with lotus, one with a ceramic jug of abundance and another hand with golden coins flowing to the huge lotus that she's standing on. She reminds me not to worry of my finances as worries, as a thought is also a form of prayer, is only stopping the flow to come in. I've asked for guidance on paying off the debt that I've spent on many items due to the nature of my new lifestyle change and never got use to spending this much, hence the nervousness. However, Lakshmi is here and is assuring me she hears my prayers for prosperity, for abundance and for ease with finances. Be patient, surrender to her and not worry. I believe it is happening and it is on its way. 

I'm taking a deep purposeful breath and relax in the 3 hours I have before I head out for my Photography class at 4pm til 10pm. Long class, nevertheless enjoyable. 

Why I Gave In

Alright, here's my new blog. I've finally gave in to the gentle nagging of my masters, guides and angels to start writing. I believe the goal here is so that I acknowledge my feelings and have the ability to analyze the way I think. And so it begins...

I am aware that the more spiritual I get, the easier and quicker my thoughts manifest by itself. Although I've been careful, there are still times when my human emotions take over. By the time I realize I'm governed by my heavy, toxic feelings, it is a little too late to apologize. My ego gets the best of me, including my past experience of traumatic events, the reptilian mind, the past life and inner child. It is all the energy and issues I had suppressed that is now slowly yet at a steady pace, releasing to the surface for me to deal with. Yes,  I do acknowledge them as soon as my ego step aside. I fixed the issues, forgive myself and move on.

Therefore, I apologize to my Husband and all the people who I have hurt and insulted unintentionally. I commend you to endure living with me while I am adjusting to the new changes my body is going through. Adjusting to the new vibration that is overtaking my physical body is no easy feat. I will remind myself to continue to treat others in a non-judgmental way, by emphasizing the positive and the loving nature in every being.

Thus, as one can see, writing is so important. I want to be able to be distinctive with my thoughts so that it doesn't just slip through my mind and forget. It clearly will be of so much help that when I do see it clearly, it will serve as a reminder of my learning experience through the choice of words I use at that particular moment.

And I promise to keep it short.